We are just 3 days short of being here two months.  We have had a marvalous time.  Working in the mission field is one of my lifes dreams and desires.  However, it does not come by easily.  Today, as I look at my grandchildren's pictures, I realize just how much I miss my family.  I only wish that they knew how much that I love them.  I feel so lonely tonight, wondering what they are doing, waiting for them to reach out and give grandma a hug. Oh how I miss them.  I wonder what my own children are doing as well.  My son, who I just love so much is so busy with his life and family, I wonder if he even knows how much his mom longs for him.  My dear daughter who has has so much sickness in her life, is one that I am so concerned with.  She is so much like me. Miss independant.  Always so quick to tell me that she is grown now and has a husband.  I wonder as she holds her little ones what it will be like when they grow up and leave as well.  How I want to hold my children once more and let them know that I am mom, and I will always love them no matter how big or old they get.  Children grow up, but never in their mothers hearts.